Sunday, June 13, 2010

Where's the manual when you need it.

Cameron is getting very close to kindergarten and she is very excited. She is going to Pre-school 3 days a week right now and really loves it. It almost seems like she even needs the break from me, she comes home a little tired but refreshed and ready to see us again. But I can't help but feel a little nervous. It's not that I don't think she will do well, but lately she has been telling me really mean things kids have been saying to her. A few days ago she told us a girl at school told her that she was going to sneak into our house when we were sleeping and kill Cameron then Kill her sister and then her parents. My mouth dropped when I heard that. Is this a "normal kid" thing to say, I don't think so. And today another girl told Cameron that she hated her because she had brown eyes. What is with kids these days. I know kids don't always say the nicest things to each other, but I do know Cameron well enough to know that she doesn't just say malicious things to others for no reason, she's a pretty thoughtful person, and I don't think I am just being bias.
So now I have all these fears running through my mind about public school. I think Cameron will learn great but all I can think about is how other parents are raising there children and what impact that will have on my child if I chose to expose her to them daily. I'm not the kind of person that is always running to my kids defense or always holding their hand so they wont fall, but I don't like to hear about kids saying hateful thing to my sweet 5 year old.
it's almost overwhelming to think that Nick and I are responsible for molding Cameron into the person she will become. And we'll have to lead her and guide her in the right direction, what a huge Responsibility!! So I suppose it's just one of many many decisions I will have to make along the way, and hope it's the right one.

Monday, June 7, 2010

Moving again.

I should be doing Laundry or Packing up things here, at my moms house, But I just can't find the motivation right now. We are moving back down to Scotts Valley sometime Next week, between the 16th and the 20th. I forgot how much the rental process sucks. Fortunately We are going to be moving into our old house we moved out of when we Left California. I am excited about having my own home again, and I love the property it's on, but I am not excited that the House really Needs some updating, as well as the leaking roof, and the Only Bathroom is through the master Bedroom. I just really can't understand how they can be raising the rent a hundred dollars! Living there is bitter sweet. I guess I should just be grateful my Kids will have a big safe yard to play in everyday. I am ready to settle in and lay my head on my own bed and walk around my own piles of mess I just don't feel like picking up, because that's just the way I am.