Where's the manual when you need it.

Cameron is getting very close to kindergarten and she is very excited. She is going to Pre-school 3 days a week right now and really loves it. It almost seems like she even needs the break from me, she comes home a little tired but refreshed and ready to see us again. But I can't help but feel a little nervous. It's not that I don't think she will do well, but lately she has been telling me really mean things kids have been saying to her. A few days ago she told us a girl at school told her that she was going to sneak into our house when we were sleeping and kill Cameron then Kill her sister and then her parents. My mouth dropped when I heard that. Is this a "normal kid" thing to say, I don't think so. And today another girl told Cameron that she hated her because she had brown eyes. What is with kids these days. I know kids don't always say the nicest things to each other, but I do know Cameron well enough to know that she doesn't just say malicious things to others for no reason, she's a pretty thoughtful person, and I don't think I am just being bias.
So now I have all these fears running through my mind about public school. I think Cameron will learn great but all I can think about is how other parents are raising there children and what impact that will have on my child if I chose to expose her to them daily. I'm not the kind of person that is always running to my kids defense or always holding their hand so they wont fall, but I don't like to hear about kids saying hateful thing to my sweet 5 year old.
it's almost overwhelming to think that Nick and I are responsible for molding Cameron into the person she will become. And we'll have to lead her and guide her in the right direction, what a huge Responsibility!! So I suppose it's just one of many many decisions I will have to make along the way, and hope it's the right one.

Moving again.

I should be doing Laundry or Packing up things here, at my moms house, But I just can't find the motivation right now. We are moving back down to Scotts Valley sometime Next week, between the 16th and the 20th. I forgot how much the rental process sucks. Fortunately We are going to be moving into our old house we moved out of when we Left California. I am excited about having my own home again, and I love the property it's on, but I am not excited that the House really Needs some updating, as well as the leaking roof, and the Only Bathroom is through the master Bedroom. I just really can't understand how they can be raising the rent a hundred dollars! Living there is bitter sweet. I guess I should just be grateful my Kids will have a big safe yard to play in everyday. I am ready to settle in and lay my head on my own bed and walk around my own piles of mess I just don't feel like picking up, because that's just the way I am.

Were still here.

It's been far to long since I have blogged here. Does anybody even read this thing? we'll I like to write here anyhow. We are still Living at my mom and dads house here in colorful Portland Or. but the good news is that We sold our house in Killeen TX, So Life is no longer in Limbo, lol, we have options! isn't that great. We also achieved becoming debt free, that is Awesome too. But living here for the last 6 months has afforded us a pretty decent savings account.....thanks mom and dad =) So We have decided to head back to Santa Cruz Ca. after this Semester is over in Mid June. So things are moving along well and The kids are getting bigger everyday. What more can I really say, I am still busy, busy, with I don't even know what, but it is wonderful.

Restless girls Road trippin in March. Just a little trip we took to Idaho to Visit our friends and family.

Happy 5th birthday Cameron!

Cameron getting "big girl" jewelry for her newly pierced ears.

And as part of her birthday weekend extravaganza she started her first Ballet class, and LOVED it of course.

Dancing Daddy

Here is a cute video from about a year ago. I just thought it was soooo cute so I wanted to share it.

Merry Christmas!

Christmas 09

Here is the picture I mean to send out in Christmas cards to all our friends and family.....oops

One of my best presents of all times!

She loved this present that Nick picked out, now I am hoping she will stay out of my makeup.

Sweet new play kitchen! thanks Grandma and Grandpa

Cameron the poet

Last night as I was putting Rowan to sleep, and Cameron was already tucked into her bed, I over heard Cameron whisper to herself "The last Colors in my world are fading" So Poetic I thought. Just wanted to capture that memory.